The bitter taste of regret taste rather sweet on my tongue

The world is, at some point, the enemy, but you know what they say. Keep your friends close and your enemies closer. Therefor, I am going to be nice to everyone, and kill 'em with kindness. I suggest doing the same. Oh, and I found out today just how heartless even the kindest of people can be. The girl who we shall call "Ky". She's beginnig to flirt with my friend as if it's okay. You know, I'm not a vengful person, but that's LOW. Like, below the belt. But I know what I'm going to do. Show Her what she had in her hands, and how much of a mistake she made. This is what traitors of hearts get: "the bitter taste of regret."

You're not alone

Today I finally forgot the pain given to me by the one who walked away. I honestly believe I'm better, but if it means anything to her, I could've been the one who would've treated her right. Oh well. You know what they say about Karma. But she'll see within a month who I truely am, and honestly I don't care now. The sun has risen over the horizon and I feel better now. But I realize how one thought can affect your judgement. However, following what you believe in is not a bad thing. It'll make you see what happens when you try, the good and bad, and you just go with it.

Also, I'm starting to think about what impact words have on people. The words one mutters could be the ones someone needs to hear. For instance, the Bunny the Bear's "C'est pas si loin" is now what I'm listening to and it basiclly says how I felt a week ago. Its a beautiful song, but its music like that, meaningful songs, that shows, as artists, we are vulnerable, but we'll show the world we're here and ready to take everyone on. I'll support any cause because I believe even the creepiest of people deserve to be backed up. And as long as I breath and my heart beats, I know I'll be the one to aid those who can't stand alone. You shall never be alone, for I'm not/ The world holds people who hove the capacity to care for others, even the heartless, but they don't have someone to care about as they want to be cared for. I put my problems aside to help others, and even tghough I rarely get help, when I do, it's enough to make up for years of being neglected. Just remember, you never have nothing, because there's always someone who will be there to lift you from the floor before anyone can kick you while you're down.

New Entity

Its been one week since my heart felt like absolute nothing, but as of now, its like it never happened. When that happens, its best to find outlets for your frustrations(music, art, pictures, tv, mma, anything constructive, but not self-destructive.) I'm tearing down the walls I built around myself to let people in further. But do I regret trying too hard? No, for now I can say that I went in with my hopes and my head held high. I figure this: It's no ones loss, but she could've had someone who'd fight to the death for her, and as she walked away, my tears stop falling, I pick myself up off the floor, and do the same. Until the day I meet the "One", I will let go off the search, and just live life. So, with that being said, I'm having a good day. Will I see her today? Yes. Will I act like I'm fine? Yes, but it's not really acting. This shall be fun....

I do want to say, however, that I need to say. If you've ever just wanted to just flipped the bird to the world, hold it high with those who you hold close. "You make the world around you as happy as you are." I was told that, but that could just be a line of pure crap psycologists and guidence councilers feed us just to do their job. But, at the same time, It's not that far off. If you are positive about who you are, and never stray from that for anyone, then you're set. Just don't go overboard on the concept and apply it to evetything.

Have you ever had one of those days where you wake up and everything just seems right? I've got a good feeling about today, and as of recent, this is a first. Is this going to keep going today, and maybe the next week? I believe so.

Broken

Some days, you would think, are the easiest to move through, however, when you see the one who broke the very heart you held so close everywhere you go, the day becomes the equivalent of hell. Why is it that a relationship can be so hard to obtain, especially now? Oh well, the time shall come. As of now, D.R.U.G.S. "If you think this song is about you, It probably is" is keeping a smirk on my face, an anthem to  everyone who has ever left me. I honestly was hurt by it, and the time came where I knew if there was a special someone, it wasn't her, but I neglected that thought. My mistake, for it felt like my heart was being bludgeoned over and over again, only to be fixed momentarily, suffering the same fate as before. I've come to realize, heartache only makes you stronger as a person, no matter who you are. As long as you have people to care about and who care about you, the heartache shall only last a second.

I was called a creep earlier, and this is all I said: "I'm just openning myself up to the world, and I really could care an insignificant amout what I'm told by you or anyone. I am who I am, and I won't ever change for anyone." And that was that. Good.

It's 3:18 in the morning, and I can't sleep, so onto here I go. Within the past 24 hours I've met two new people, ended my connection and association with someone, and finally am convincing myself the headache the latter of the three are giving me the worst headache of my 18 years of existence. Why? It's worthless and just a waste of my time, but she doesn't want to seem to end it. Oh well. It's the price I pay for being me. But I guess I'm important to some people, so I have this thought to run off of.

On this day, there shall be war.

How is it that I get bullied by a girl and her friends, have her break my heart, her laugh at me, and yet, I'm laughing? You see, tis be her immaturity. A post on her wall depicts me as a monster, a man-whore, and a fake. The only thing she really got right was the monster, for I know my place. However, her attempts to get to me today are non-existent. Today, as the title states, there shall be hell on earth for this unnamed girl. But I want to clarify, I'm not the one to bear a grudge against people, and with her I will not change this rule. Simply erase her from my life and make damn sure she never shows her face in my sight ever again.

I hated writing, and avoided it for the longest time. But it seems my words have impacted someone before and I convinced someone the are truly beautiful. As morbid and sick as my humor and my existence may be, the one I convinced makes things I deal with better, more than bearable. Edward Scissorhands falls in "love". But, to whoever is reading this, have you ever loved something, or someone, and realized your chances are as slim as a pin cut in fourths from the tip? My chances are slowly growing, and hope soon fleeted into this hopeless, hollow soul... I really want this day to be a good one, and so far, with the whole girl from my first comment, I'm laughing like I'm psychotic. It's ammusing to me.   

Almost reborn.

Its sad to know that when you feel alone, some of the time, you really are alone. Does this make Valentine's Day a black holiday of sorts for me? I'm guessing so, but quite frankly, it doesn't matter. The day is over with, the sun did set and rose this morning, therefore, a new day. Great. I know I can be negative, but if you saw the world around me here, you'd know how must of a hell this place can be. Imagine waking up to a mix between a frozen hell, a massive alleyway, and surrounded by friends, assholes, and such. And an outcast, among the "higher" kind. (Although, I am who I am, and if I am a "Freak", then I'll wave the Freak Flag and make sure EVERYONE looks.) I rant way too much, but I'm writing lyrics and having writers block, so this is what shall do.


The reason behind this title is about how I change. I looked in the mirror and did not like what I saw. I reflect on what I do and I make changes to help. I want to take on e more sentence to say something: If I offend someone I don't necessarily care for, then I won't watch what I say. If you ever are faced with a choice to stick around with someone who just doesn't care how much they hurt you, become heartless towards them, ignore them, and make them know you are strong.

Happy Valentines Day. Just had to get that out of the way. So, on Friday, I was at my friend Hammer's house.(Yes, that is his birth name, believe it or not.) But I saw the Bunny from The Bunny The Bear was on XBox live. And knowing my luck, I saw not an xbox in sight. Damn inconvenient timing! But it really doesn't matter now, because today is the one day I can feel less like nothing and more of something. Oh, I've noticed I have had a few views. I'm not big on popularity, I just want to know someone shares my opinion. And I don't care who you are, where you're from, who you like, or anything like that. As far as I am concerned, we are all equals until someone hurts anyone. So, do me a favor, whoever is reading this... Let your voice be heard, and keep going strong. Today,  somewhere in this world, someone cries, and another wipes their tears away. A heart is mended together, the wax runs back up the candle as it fell down before, and once again, a moment of happiness may last a lifetime.

Aside from this, I want to give you a little insight on who I am. You see, I can be morbid, an extreme dark sense of humor overshadows my happiness, but I do have a heart. I am not a heartless monster against the Majority of the world (although I do believe I can do without some people in life). If anyone has any comments, or want to ask a question or anything such, feel free to ask. I am open about a lot of things, so any question I will, in fact, answer. Happy Valentines Day.

I feel as though there should be more known about me, but thats for another day. Motionless In White and my girl have made my day. :) I'll try and keep up with this blog if at all possible, Until then...

New Days

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